Monday 21 November 2016

lost

I thought I had one reason to hang on to this shitful pathetic life. I would get to see my granddaughter, have a relationship with her like my mum had with my kids, and be here for Rachel when she needed advice.

Sometimes I am a complete fool. Despite living 10 minutes drive away I get to see Grace once a week for minutes only. I need to spend time in her home where she is at her most relaxed. She knows me, knows I am one of the good guys, but doesn't give me huge grins like I'm sure she does to her Uncle Teddy & Jake, and others who see her more often than I.

Meanwhile, I was informed that if my daughter has a question she goes straight to her Hub's cousin and his wife. They have 2 small boys. That is the extent of their parenting skill. It's a miracle the first kid survived with the complete lack of sterilising anything - bottles, teats...

My daughter tells me that the mother has grown and matured. I have no doubt. But she is a profoundly dumb person, so is her husband. This is my daughter's go to because it's a very long time since I had babies. That is very true and products etc have improved beyond my recognition. BUT COMMON SENSE AND THE RIGHT INSTINCTS don't go out of fashion.

So, not needed for help, not wanted for Nana love and too ill to babysit or go to them. They need to come get me.

WHY IN THE ACTUAL FUCK DO I BOTHER?



 ~~~Grace~~~

Friday 28 October 2016

put the Blacklist out of our misery

It is so sad, this season so far. The ONLY thing that made Blacklist so popular was James Spader's Raymond Reddington - with all of his quirky amazing monologues, humour, ruthlessness and love for Liz.
Since she got my hopes up and pretended to die, then didn't, it has been a complete shitshow. She does that to the man who has done everything to keep her safe and alive, has put up with her fucking whining every 5 seconds, and then she just expects him to be all happy to see her? And KEEP saving her and her kid?
Meanwhile, Red has not been shown as he always was, with his unique & fascinating mind and vocabulary confusing the hell out of anyone he decided was not on his side. The character has been completely muted. Fucking Liz and her psychotic mood swings have taken up all of the first episodes. Whose side is she on? She changes her mind about 50 times a week and even when she says it's all Red or all Daddy half the time she is lying. No one ever knows what she is doing and yet there she is, back at the top secret taskforce when she isn't even an agent any more.
I wanted her to die, Tom to leave and just have Red, Dembe and Mr Kaplan running the show. James Spader is the only reason 99.9 percent of people watch. Now though I believe it's too far gone and they should can it and create something new, worthy of Spader and with some castmates who can actually ACT with him.



Saturday 17 September 2016

Americans - is there a wider space between the extremes anywhere in the world?




to start & give context - the only 2 men I have ever truly loved and been loved by were American. They were the smartest funniest most loving best men I have ever known in my almost 55 years on earth.
They both passed away.. cancer, that motherfucker. I had suffered depression & anxiety since my teens but on losing these men, I broke. Several breakdowns, large doses of meds and I have not left my house more than 10 times in 15 years.
My point, I have known huge numbers of the best people - male & female - whose kindness, friendliness, generousity, everything good to be found in a person, who were/are from the US. I am not one of the "foreigners" who hate US tourists (although I admit, many of those who travel are not top echelon specimans)

Ok? So I am predisposed to LIKE Americans. Now you may want to don your visual earplugs because we are entering the #allcapsrant {©C. Enlow, Pajiba}


I HAVE BEEN WATCHING/READING/LISTENING TO DONNIE THE DRUMPF FOR AS LONG AS ALL THE REST OF THE WORLD. I HAVE KEPT INSISTING THAT NOW PEOPLE WILL SEE, AND THIS FARCE WILL END.

ALMOST EVERY DAY FOR 18 MONTHS THIS TANGERINE FUCKFACE MCCLOWNSTICK HAS SAID SOMETHING, OR MANY SOMETHINGS, TO DISGUST DECENT PEOPLE EVERYWHERE. HE HAS SAID 100S OF THINGS THAT - HAD ANOTHER PRES. CANDIDATE SAID THEM, WOULD HAVE SEEN THEM KICKED OUT ON THEIR ARSES.

NOT ONLY IS HE STILL THERE, BUT SEEMINGLY EVERY REDNECK GUNTOTING NECKBEARD ILLITERATE IS CONSTANTLY INFORMING US HOW DONNIE BOY 'TELLS IT LIKE IT IS". 

THERE HAS NEVER BEEN ANOTHER POLITICIAN, IN MY MEMORY, WHO LIES SO OFTEN, TO SO MANY, & GETS AWAY WITH IT. THESE ARE THINGS EASILY CHECKED BUT THE SCREAMING MORONS DON'T NEED TO. DONNIE SAID IT AND HE TELLS IT LIKE IT IS.

DRUMPF IS A CRIMINAL. EVERYONE WITH 2 BRAIN CELLS TO RUB TOGETHER KNOWS THAT. MILLIONS OF $$, 'YUGE' INVESTMENT OPPORTUNITIES, AVERAGE PEOPLE GETTING DUPED OUT OF THEIR HARD EARNED CASH AND OH, OOPSY, ANOTHER BANKRUPTCY.
TOUGH SHIT FOLKS, GUESS YOU LOSE.

I'M SO TIRED. EVERY SINGLE SITE ON THE INTERNET HAS BEEN INFILTRATED BY HIS FUCKWITTED RACIST VIOLENT NAZI POD PEOPLE.

I COULD GO ON FOREVER WITH SPECIFICS OF HOW YOU KNOW HE IS LYING - FLAT OUT NO BS LYING - BECAUSE HIS MOUTH IS MOVING. BUT I JUST.CAN'T.EVEN.

THE WORLD IS IN DANGER. IF THIS MALIGNANT NARCISSIST, THIS PROFOUNDLY STUPID MAN WHO CARES ABOUT NOTHING IN THE WORLD EXCEPT THE TRUMP FAMILY FORTUNE, IS VOTED INTO THE TOP JOB IN AMERICA - MAY THE OLD GODS AND THE NEW PROTECT US ALL.

IF HE DOESN'T HIT THE WRONG NUKE CODE AND BLOW UP OUR COUNTRY BY MISTAKE, HIS KKK FAN BASE MIGHT COME A'CALLIN'. OR HIS BEST BUDDY PUTIN MIGHT GIVE HIM A YUGE GOOD IDEA THAT WOULD MEAN THE END OF AMERICA/ANY NUMBER OF POSSIBILITES IN THE WORLD AS WE KNOW IT.

There is no use asking his fan club to think what they are doing, to consider what he has said. Most of them couldn't remember.
As the latest example, today September 17th he suggested that Hillary wants to take their fucking precious gun toting amendment away from them and so she should not be allowed armed guards. Does that sound like an invitation for some whackjob to kill Drumpf's rival to anyone else?

EVERYTHING THIS MAN SAYS IS A LIE (except for the wanting to fuck his daughter. It's obvious that's true) EVERYTHING HE SAYS IS RACIST, SEXIST, ISLAMOPHOBIC, & MADE UP AS HE GOES ALONG. HE BLITHELY MENTIONS HOW MANY WAR CRIMES HE WILL COMMIT. HE ... HE ...


Thursday 28 July 2016

my first grandbaby ..

I had to cleanse myself of the Drumpf Disgust before mentioning why today - hopefully today - is a special day. It is almost 10pm on Thursday July 28 and my beautiful daughter is in the process of bringing her first child, a little girl, into the world.
I HOPE she will make 28th her birthday, my daughter has been in labour for over 24 hours & 2 more had better be enough !!
I will meet my first grandchild tomorrow & I cannot wait to hold her.



UPDATE
My gorgeous princess Grace was indeed born on the 28th.  Now 7 weeks old, smiling, growing like a weed & bringing joy to her parents, she will soon be laughing, walking, talking & wrapping her extended family around her finger.

Here is a photo of my angel Grace at 6 weeks old <3 <3


an Aussie's horror at the US election - specifically Drumpf

I am honestly completely shocked & horrified at the number of unequivicably stupid people there is in America. My soul mate & many of my best friends have been American. I know how many wonderful people call the US home. BUT ... How ANYONE can say ANY other politician is an evil liar & then say vote for Trump, who is seemingly incapable of telling the truth about anything. Not to mention being profoundly dumb, an instinctively dishonest narcissist with the thinnest skin, smallest vocabulary (& hands) & no morals or interest in anyone but himself. He is what many people around the world call a typical Jerry Springer Show guest. He is a huge, glowing orange joke with a dead animal on his head. He talks about wanting to sleep with his daughter. He gives every person who dares disagree with him (read: sane people) "clever" nicknames that are right out of a 2nd grader's favourite insults handbook. I don't know any more whether to laugh at him and revile him or to fear him. If he becomes POTUS, the whole world will be in danger. Think about how many countries he could blow up in the midst of a hissy tantrum over someone telling him he has small ... hands. That should be a joke. With Drumpf and his nazi followers running around trying to be boss of America, it is not exactly amusing.




Monday 27 June 2016

I don't know what to do

here I sit, alone as always. Today brought one of the 2 best episodes of my favourite tv show probably ever - season 6 finale of Game of Thrones. After the Battle of the Bastards last week I'm guessing all the whingers & Georgey boy "the books are betters" shitheads might be quiet for a minute. That will be nice.

For 69 minutes I was entranced, and happy. That was it for the week, actually for the year as far as GoT goes. Now I am back to my regularly scheduled black depression. Worrying about my oldest who is waiting to see a surgeon about a hernia surgery. He is in pain. Spoke to my middle child today, he was going to call me back after he watched GoT. He didn't.


Then there's my daughter. My baby who is due to have her own baby in app. 5 weeks time. A little girl. My poor girl has been sick every single day of the pregnancy. She just wants the baby out here so she can stop throwing up and being in pain. She has been really good at coping, whenever I see her anyway. That's the problem now, for me. I don't see her. She lives 5 minutes' drive away, says she is always happy to come get me and bring me over, says she wants me to see all the baby things she got at her shower. Then, nah. It doesn't happen. I totally understand her being exhausted, cranky, not in the mood, whatever. It's just when I hear her happily chatting from a friend's kid sister's birthday party or wherever she might be when I finally call her to check in. It honestly seems to me that she is ok to do anything, except have me over so she can do exactly as she does the rest of the time in her own home.


We are very close. This is really starting to hurt me.




if anything in the world aside from millions of dollars can cheer me up, it's photos like this <3
be prepared for ALOT.

Sunday 26 June 2016

where I find a new place to bore no one but myself

testing
testing

with the way the world is, this year is, my health is, my finances (are) is - I figured I'd better find somewhere new to rant, swear, whinge & moan because no one else wants to hear this shit.

I'm trying to make the settings do what I want but it seems even my rudimentary mad computer skillz >.> have deserted me.